Around and Round About

Each day a chance, a gift.

Greeted with conscious effort.

Wrangles legs from the bed.

Tentatively feels for the floor.

Numb today, “please no… please…”

Rubbing muscles to wake them up –

Wiggle-wiggle, “my toe! my toe!”

Some things you might not yet know.

Many things I do not know.

Courage in fact bag packed,

Off we go again

Another doctor, another test.

The mind is swirling, cycles and circles everywhere.

Too much? Too little? I do not know.

Relief? A cure? “No, sorry no…”

I bought more time today.

I walk, I talk, I live in pain.

Yes, I struggle

So, tell me, what can it be?

What curse is this which engulfs me?

Is it the answer in magic tea?

Written in 2015 after Spinal Surgery to remove 12 cm tumor from thoracic region. I had to learn to walk again. Still to this day I have days where walking is not an option. The little things I took for granted are now things I cherish, like a short walk on the beach or a play with my beautiful dog, or a long conversation with a friend.

© Susie J Folmer