After great loss and grief: A note to self.
In honour of my Pa (Dad) and Lily’s Papa who passed away in the presence of my mother and I in April 2024. Loved, cherished, honoured, missed, forever and a day…
Following the life events which have unfolded for me over this past few months there hasn’t been much time for me to put pen to paper, let alone simply to have a period of deep thoughts, journalling in the hope of finding a path through the heavy fog. Long drives, hospitals, care homes, funeral homes, with a stop-off “home” to freshen up and go again. Power naps become the new sleep. The kindness of strangers handing you a warm drink as you sit quietly, holding space with someone so dear, so important and so gravely unwell, becomes “just enough” to help you continue. The torrent of emotions never experienced before begins to find a place in your life that you compartmentalise to cope.
Surely there are life lessons at times like these? It certainly makes us wonder about the meaning and purpose of life.
Amid the feeling of hopelessness, there’s a spark of a fire inside of you that tells you otherwise, that it’s worth it, things will get better, and no matter what happens, never lose sight of the things that mean the world to you.
We must listen to that fire inside of us all because it is telling us there is still hope. The sadness, the tension and the negative thoughts have been gnawing away at our self perception and life dreams.
Life wasn’t just meant to be barely lived, or vaguely experienced, watched from the sidelines. You know there’s so much more!
It’s time to feel free again. To take control over our lives. Let this adversity be our greatest lesson and face it head on with determination and and innate tenacity.
© Susie J Folmer, 2024
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